A downfall

I was sitting on the bus just the other day thinking, I guess it’s the eternal question that all men seek an answer too.

How do we work out a woman?

I spent such a long time learning about the Human body for my job, anatomy and physiology and what not.

I know how a heart works so why can’t I work out her’s?

How do I find the words that could melt her heart?

How do I even approach her?

It was a strange realisation that it has been so long since I have even wanted to approach a woman that I simply have no idea what to do anymore! This was sort of thing was easy once, but then again much of the time I was not so ‘invested’ in the outcome.
Now I find I’m scared to be alone. For the longest time being alone hasn’t worried me, that is until she walked into my life. Now it is a torment to be without her that I am struggling to endure.
I guess I simply need to ‘man up’ and talk to her, tell her just what she means to me, how extraordinary she is. Lay it all on the line as they say.
Heh, just the thought of telling her has my heart racing and my hands trembling. Could I endure the pain if she turns me away?
I don’t know.
I have never felt such tumultuous desire, such a deep yearning and dare I say it, Love for a woman. Oh, how I yearn for her loving embrace, that subtle touch on the depths of my mind.
Yes it is true, I have fallen and never wish to return.

I want you, I long for you.
I dream of you in my esoteric world,
I desire so, to speak my mind,
This revelation of my soul,
To tell of the thrill that lifts my spirit,
And sores so high to touch the heavens,
Oh how I feel, this tumultuous heartfelt anguish,
This ecstasy of desire,
But I find no way to say
With this pathetic feeble mind,
Just what you are to me,
Oh how I long to know if you may feel this way?
If there is any room for me in your heart?
I won’t take much space,
I won’t try to overwhelm,
It is just me,
Only me.

I feel you out there, with such an aching heart I know you are near and yet so far from me. You are the summer of my world.
AJ.