Could there be hope?

The eternal question, just when I think that I may never hear from her or see her again something happens. I heard from her yesterday, a sudden bolt from the blue that struck my very heart with an ecstasy that is hard to imagine.
It was just a short message about an endeavour I have undertaken for her, not much of one but anything I can do for her is pure pleasure. A friend publishes a magazine, car culture, my world.
I lent it to her a while ago and she was instantly taken with the mag that she wants to borrow it again. Yeah I know its kind-a pathetic that I’m excited over this but it affords me an opportunity to see her, to look once again into to those gorgeous azure pools of delight as we talk. Even with that simple thought my hands tremble and my chest swells.
So I have attempted to gain her a subscription to the mag. Like I said, anything, absolutely anything for her. Also scored her a T shirt from the mag so I’m trying to work my way up to her little by little. I know material things are not the ideal way to do that but it’s a start.
She told me that her relationship is a bit rocky now, it surprised me that when I read that I was saddened buy it. I would rather see her happy, even if it is without me. Strange as it sounds I just don’t want her to go through the heart ache of a break up even if that opens up a possible future ‘in’ for me.
I just couldn’t stand the thought of her hurting like that. Should the worst happen all I want to do would be to take her in my arms and comfort her, to take away the hurt she will feel.
How conflicted can one be, I want her so badly for myself it infringes in every aspect of my life but still I can’t bear to the thought of her suffering the pain of splitting up.
If he is a smart man he will drop whatever he does like a hot potato so he can hold onto the greatest woman I have ever meet.
This is what she said,
‘My other half gets back on thurs for 5days then takes off again for 2wks, then comes back for good...for now anyway?! I told him Im out if he keeps going away and he understands so we'll see..fingers crossed!!’

Oh god I want her in my life, though I want her to be happy, should I hope that they break up? If I do I feel like such a terrible person.
Well that’s it for now,
Should you happen to ever read this I love you with all my being.
Whatever happens now I am riding on that cloud of supreme ecstasy from just hearing from you, please, please let me in.